ignorethefringes
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A bit of personal experience to tie into this for what it is worth.I am sure this is just a snarky internet post, but as a member of a family that has been touched by suicide I must do the "dad post" in response.
If you do in fact think of ways to commit suicide in anymore than the most fleeting fashion these are called "suicidal ideations". Some folks have them and never intend anything with them and never act on them, but some folks are later hit with a bout of depression or major life crisis and then spontaneously act on the ideation. You are probably fine, but if you tend to have such thoughts regularly, if you or family members suffer from anxiety, depression or manic episodes, please find a qualified professional to talk to. "Mere" suicidal ideation can be an early watch out sign if paired with other stressors and is not something just to take without introspection.
If you have concerns but don't know where to start, you can always try 1-800-273-8255 hotline or text 741741
When I started on TRT (due to diagnosed deficiency and injury), I went through a period of probably 6+ weeks where I would have random bouts of suicidal ideation every single day. I never explored it or intended to take any action on it, but the thoughts came regularly and without warning. After my body adjusted to the therapy the thoughts (along with issues/adjustments such as anger issues, wild emotional swings, etc.) eventually stopped but it took time. Before they had ceased completely I opened up to wife about it to make sure she was in the loop and knew where I was. That was probably the best thing for me at the time.
All of that nonsense is behind me now. And I'm thankful I didn't struggle with suicidality prior to starting TRT as I can only imagine how much worse it could have been.