Smiling big at what just happened. But also a bit of shock, not bad shock, just really did not expect to find what I just found after already watching for some time what I just found (don't lecture me on better glass. I freaking know I need to upgrade!)
Did not expect to be doing any trigger pulling on this day and the regrets are zero. A lot of work to do and a lot to do quickly if I'm gonna make it home in time to help out with the toddler when he wakes up from his nap at 4 pm.
I really felt that this was a godsend. An incredible blessing and a gift to some hard times and the beginning of a journey to some mental healing on my part. I know that my mental health problems pale in comparison to some and some on this very website. I want to be very clear how often I think about that and how I feel for those people. And, not that i'm trying to minimize in relevancy or seriousness what i'm dealing with and other folks who dealing with similar things, but in some respects I feel like I'm dealing with the "first world problems" in mental health compared to the magnitude and debilitating nature of what others have to deal with, and I feel for them.
