I'm sorry it went like that for you on your first hunt, but as cliche as it is to say, and as hard as it is to hear...that's part of it. It's easy to forget when we are picturing how everything will go in our mind, that the base of what we are doing is killing an animal, and sometimes that can be less than glamorous. We all seek to minimize the suffering we inflict on the animals we hunt, but we are taking their lives, and sometimes suffering is an unfortunate side effect to that pursuit...and that's something that hunters have to learn to live with. Let it motivate you to work hard, get better, learn to control your emotions as best you can, and temper your expectations with some reality.
It was your first hunt, and you got a little shook up when things didn't go like you had imagined, that's understandable. You'll do better in the future, but that doesn't mean every shot you take with whatever you choose to hunt with will always go perfectly. I've seen plenty of firearm hunts go similarly to your hunt. It's good that you're upset about what happened, but you're going to have to wrap your head around the fact that this is a reality in hunting, and be able to move on from it...if you let it live in your head too much it will affect future hunts, and you don't want that. So steel your resolve with the knowledge that just because things didn't go like you wanted, that doesn't mean that you (or the outfitter) did something terribly wrong, this is just a regrettable aspect of hunting that you have to come to terms with, get back to your practice, learn your lessons, rebuild your confidence, and try again.
Good luck with your deer hunt!
It was your first hunt, and you got a little shook up when things didn't go like you had imagined, that's understandable. You'll do better in the future, but that doesn't mean every shot you take with whatever you choose to hunt with will always go perfectly. I've seen plenty of firearm hunts go similarly to your hunt. It's good that you're upset about what happened, but you're going to have to wrap your head around the fact that this is a reality in hunting, and be able to move on from it...if you let it live in your head too much it will affect future hunts, and you don't want that. So steel your resolve with the knowledge that just because things didn't go like you wanted, that doesn't mean that you (or the outfitter) did something terribly wrong, this is just a regrettable aspect of hunting that you have to come to terms with, get back to your practice, learn your lessons, rebuild your confidence, and try again.
Good luck with your deer hunt!